Another emo post...
well.. not really say emo i suppose.. just more thinking thru nowadays.. climbing has finally taken a step back for now.. had the last training on wed.. dont want to go into details for that... just wasnt that good to talk about..
well.. since i'm gonna have some free time for now when climbing has taken a step back for a while.. i figured perhaps it's time for me to think about stuff, reevaluate and see where i'm going to go from here and into the next year..
looking ahead.. looking at what i'm gonna face next year..especially studies and climbing.. i dunno.. i dunno if i am strong enough to handle them..both studies and climbing are going to be heavy and hard on me next year.. all these uncertainty.. it's killing me at times..
looking back this year.. well.. it's been the hardest and toughest year of my whole entire study life so far.. going home at 9 plus 10 during training days.. having late nights even during school term... sleeping during lessons like nobody's business.. been a new experience..and i seemed to have managed to scrap through the year i suppose, which is a good thing i suppose.. but it's tiring.. real tiring.. that sometimes i will hope that i can just get away from all my responsibilities and just rest for once.. just rest and nothing else.. but it's definitely not possible, just my wishful thinking...haha...
which brings me to the question whether i should let go of some things, let go of things that i'm just not strong enough to hold on to..let go of things that i'm just not meant to hold on to.. will it be better that way? i dunno.. i just hope that answer will come to me soon.. though i know that answer needs to be found by myself only.. i hope that answer will be a wise, good and beneficial to everyone out there..
just a quote i saw on my friend's blog:Change is Always a Constant, And we Must Learn to Embrace the Changes..
the answer will be a change.. let's just hope that change can be embraced without hesitation
waiting for you to come back @ 12:17 PM