Not a bad day... but not a wonderful day either...
today is the farewell party for the climbing seniors... started off quite good... played in the pool, helped decorate the place, helped with the cooking and stuff... most of us are having fun...
it was until we started the dunking game... started pushing people into the pool la... the year 1 guys tried to target shi han... but apparently suddenly the year 2 guys were very united and managed to save him, in addition, pushing about 3 of the year 1s into the water...
then the year 1s started to target one another... boys push boys, boy push girls, girls push boys, girls push girls... then i also joined in the fun la... ended up i made a ABSOULTELY DUMB, STUPID action la... pushed some girls in... one of them is shu hui... din really expect something serious to happen... thought it was just for some fun... SCREW in the name of fun... after she went into the pool, she came up, having difficulty in breathing la... what the hell... i really din mean to do that...i felt like a total idiot, total bastard... just really hope that there is a hole and i can jump in and hide myself la... shouldnt be her that is suffering... i was the one who was at fault la... seriously i really hoped that there was some way that can transfer that suffering to me la.. seeing her suffer.. i feel like killing myself, for doing something so DARN STUPID!!! seeing her suffer, it felt like i'm having tons of weight in my heart... i felt very guilty... although shalynn said it was an accident, but still this accident is caused by me la... i din have any appetite to eat much until it was about 10 plus at night when she was feeling much better... but there wasnt any much food left... so bascially i ate my breakfast at about 7 plus... and during the afternoon i ate a few finger food and survived to reaching midnight...
retribution comes... gastric... having so little for the whole day... kinda expected it la... i din really complain... considering the horrible thing i did... i really just hope that nothing will happen to shu hui la... i dont mind having some more gastric attacks if that will make her feel better.... i swear i will not push anyone down the pool ever again, at least not any girl... that's for certain... please... shu hui... please be alright...=( or i think i will be guilty for the rest of my life.... hai..
waiting for you to come back @ 12:51 AM