Emo...
hai... lately very emo for some reason, which i dunno what it is... feel very sian about almost everything... school, life etc... just had an ogl interview yesterday... then today damn sian... felt that i wont do a good job if i become one.. so i told one of the HC members that i pulling out... suddenly all the flame and enthu-ness died le... really very sian... really want a proper rest this holiday... yet all the things are piling up... homework, year end trip and training... i really need a rest... badly...
maybe that's why today when i was going back home from school today... took things very slowly le.. though i saw 229 at the bus stop.. just dont feel like running towards it and stop it.. i just sat down and waited for another one, listening to instrumental songs... walking home... perhaps it's like one of the few times that i took almost 25 mins just to walk home... i was practically strolling... looking at everything else around... realised it's quite relaxing... dont think of anything... no worries.. just walk and enjoy things around me... haha... the feeling felt so unfamilar.. there isnt any good scenary.. just people and some trees around... but it felt so unfamilar... maybe i should do this more... but there isnt time... always.. there isnt time... wonder when there will be...
oh... haha... when walking home... suddenly had a urge to eat waffle... really in love with the waffle that the shop sells la.. it's near my home.. so quite convenient... very nice la.. crispy and stuff..
haha.. oh ya.. today went blading with amy, christine, michelle, jennifer, hoi shek, si jing, yao wen and zhexuan... not bad ba... been quite some time since i bladed le... though i still fell.. sian... so many times i still fall... hmm.. details wise.. i dont feel like typing it out... most prob christine or si jing will blog about it ba... ahha... so refer to theirs... hehe...
that's about it ba... haha.. will continue next time... which i dunno when will that be.. ahha...
waiting for you to come back @ 7:55 PM
Results... Fate....
hai... finally all the grades of my promos are out... not say they are bad.. if i were to say that... think a lot of people gonna surround me and bash me up to death... but just not really up to my expectations ba.. results dropped in almost all subjects except for GP.. strangely.. maybe cos got include class participation and class work and oral presentation which was quite well done i suppose...
Maths : 77 (A)
Chem: 63 (B)
Phy: 68 (C)
Econs: 51 (D)
GP: 52.1 (D)
sian diao... got a BAD CD -.-(dunno who is the one that is lame la) no la... not because that i sian.. during phy yesterday... mr lim mentioned about our class no point taking H3 since PSC scholarship requires academic points to be 11, which is equivalent to 4H2 and 1 H3 or 3H2 and 2 H3.. it's a guideline... but it also means that no matter whether i take H3 or not.. it will not affect me on whether can get scholarship or not.. like suddenly a bit lost la.. thought can get scholarship then can reduce my parents' burden.. looks like that's impossible.. but mr lim also say outside got a lot of bank loans quite good de.. you can borrow first then come out and work to pay them back.. well if i really cannot get a scholarship.. that's the only alternative left ba.. hai...
haha... but like even fate is telling me there isnt a point to take H3 la.. suay suay my econs got a D.. requirement is a C.. so.. hai... let's just forget it.. maybe next year will have some scholarships that does not require H3.. though that's quite impossible... hai... oh ya.. haha.. most likely i will get kicked out of Mazarin Programme le.. also good la.. since cannot go for scholarship.. no point be in that programme also..
must really buck up sia... i mean...now only have 3H2 and 1 H1.. no H3.. must score well!!! gonna get all As!!!!! argh!!!!!
oh ya.. yesterday went to east coast park cos of PSI too high (113), which apparently doesnt look like it... then inline skating got cancelled and we got refunded.. then we went to east coast to cycle.. (for the rest of the details, please refer to christine's blog)
one more thing!!! haha.. for the first time.. morning assembly is cancelled due to high PSI (103), which really looks worse than PSI 113 la.. but the air is really unclean.. feels weird when breathing the air this morning... got rain somemore la.. but still as bad..
hmm... dunno what to say le... *thinks hard* oh.. finally.. PW is reaching its end.. WR is handed in today!!! left with OP and I & R le.. finally.. after so long... but actually comes to think of it.. the start of actual PW feels like yesterday.. haha.. sounds like a phrase said in drama serials... but seriously.. we have come a long way without knowing ba.. and as joce said.. PW has certainly brought the class together.. cos can all say how bad PW is.. how sian PW is.. haha.. the class really come a long way to be together ba.. from like cliques all over to now.. ok la.. still got cliques.. but bigger le.. now we are even having a class gathering on the 6Nov la.. can celebrate the end of OP and the end of PW.. hope all will go well ba...haha.. ok.. end le end le.. very long le.. haha... bye!
waiting for you to come back @ 10:56 AM
Hmmm...
Actually wanted to blog some stuff here earlier in the day... but suddenly realised some stuff cannot be said in the blog.. cos you might never know who's gonna read it.. haha.. luckily there is always an alternative... sometimes it's frustrating to keep things to yourself and have no means of letting it out... yet .. i'm doing that almost all the time.. kinda ironic ba.. but that's me ba... always living up to people's expectations.. people expect me to do this, to do that... sometimes it's fine as it gives me a sense of achievement.. a sense of importance to others... but sometimes.. it's tiring... i'm tired of doing what people want for me.. people dun really know... they got used of me getting things done... that's how i work.. i always get things done.. though at the end i got too stressed up sometimes... but then again... i wonder... how will the world change if i were not around anymore? will people miss me? how will people remember me as? just another normal guy who once walked this world? sometimes i'm really curious to see how my friends will live without me... will their lives change? will they still remember me as time goes by?
haha... nah... i'm not suicidal... so relax for those who are thinking that way...just a simple thought that flashed through my mind...
oh btw.. big thanks to si jing who finally sent me the html code for archive after so long............... better late than never har... haha... that's all ba... 7 more hours to the hour of reckoning( Collection of all Promos papers...) =(
waiting for you to come back @ 12:50 AM
Slack, SUAY school day...
hmm.. it is the first day of the post exam activities day... hmm... not really say an activity day... cos we din do any activity la... hai... it's kinda good... since we can slack around... today we merely had lecture and lecture... 3 lecture in all... 2 pw and 1 student welfare... pw ones were ok... got some information out... student welfare.. kinda useless la... but i din sleep... dunno why... not tired leh... though i slept at 3am last night... for some reason i cant fall asleep la... rare for that to happen... end up i was playing my phone games... i even resorted to reading TIME... can you believe that... but i still din managed to fall asleep within a short time... lied on the bed for quite some time... ok... enough of my sleeping..
anyway.. today.. after the lecture... our pw group proceed to the hub to do our OP slides... cos we were supposed to do them on wed.. but the meeting was cancelled... considering that we are going to have time today... so might as well let the group members have a rest.. see so nice right... wahaha... but werent very productive for some reason... end up we have to edit some more for the slides.. hai...
at about 12... we left school.. why 12? cos the gate is not open before that... hai.. sad... oh well.. then michelle, christine, si jing and me went to mac to eat lunch... hoi shek was supposed to join us... end up he needed to settle open house... sad... then after lunch... i got nothing to do... end up follow si jing go buy watermelon... haha... but sadly... both of us dunno how to choose a good one... once zhexuan did mention how to do so... but apparently we forgot... ended up we chose a biggest one... but not bad is that si jing bought me chocolates sia... hehe... shuang... got free food... wahhaha...
but here comes the suay part of the day... took bus home... then on my walk home... suddenly wanted to go back Maha Bodhi School to visit my teachers... long time never see time.... that time teachers day din manage to return to visit... next year they shifting le..so must go see them this year at least... but suay suay... the security guard told me that pri 1, 2 and 3 are having exams... so i cannot be walking around freely... hai.. suay... fate sia... maybe last week of school i will make another trip ba...
what's worse comes when i reached home... realised i LOST 5 BUCKS!! argh!!... i din even know when it dropped out of my pocket.. sian diao... heartache sia... hai... better not tell my mom.. she will kill me... haha... that's about it... ciao!
waiting for you to come back @ 3:07 PM
FINALLY IT'S OVER!!!
haha... 2 weeks of torture by the stupid papers... and finally today marks the end... it ended off with chem...though not as well done as i hoped to be... but.. it's over... cant do anything le.. oh well..
hai.. last day of promos... yet have to stay back to do climbing stuff... the thought of it sux.. cos is not climbing... but is settle equipment and store... you go think la...after promos = fun and fun and more fun OR sleep and sleep and more sleep.. -.-.. YET.. oh well.. responsibility... but it was fun... more fun than expected...
we ended up carrying every single item out of the store and cleaned the store la... found a lot of treasures la.. hmm.. club windbreaker, club singlets(previous batches de), a finger board, NAIL POLISH and NAIL STICKERS( wonder where they came from), a pair of high heels.. (hmm) and many more... cant recall le... haha...
anyway... BIG revolution la.. we changed the WHOLE ORIENTATION of the store la.. cleaned almost every single place in the store.. it's SUPER dirty and messy la... so we threw away a lot of stuff... old shoes and even a spoilt electric fan... you really can find wonders in the store if you have the time to search... anyway... feel quite accomplished ba... with the help of other guys like darren, jingwen, gavin, junyu, rongjun and kelvin and people... we managed to save the store! wahha... taken photos of the new store... but not the 'before' store.. cannot show the contrast la.. hai... so din bother to upload... hehe... that's about it... i'm missing my CSI Miami le... wahhaa... bye for now...
waiting for you to come back @ 9:26 PM