sigh..
guess you are really angry with me le that u are starting to ignore my sms as well..hope you will cool down and feel better soon..
Sorry...
waiting for you to come back @ 3:38 PM
hmm...
been quite long since i blog le.. either dun really have the time to use the com or no mood to blog.. but suddenly have something to blog today..
i always try to make you happy, that's all i ask for.. but at times, there are some decisions that may result in the opposite effect which i may have to make in times.. I know i may sound like i'm giving myself excuses and being selfish..but please try to understand at times..sorry if i'm asking too much..but at least try not to be upset for too long k..it hurts me too =X
Sorry..
waiting for you to come back @ 11:32 AM
Perhaps It's jus me..
Perhaps it's jus me expecting too much..
Perhaps It's jus me, and my fault for not confirming..
Perhaps it's jus me bringing up my own hopes so high..
Oh well.. it's over.. I wont brood about it anymore..haha..
waiting for you to come back @ 1:24 PM
After so long...
So long since I last blogged.. not much mood to blog ba..even though things had happened.. well..shall not brood about the past events, except the recent one perhaps..
A Levels!
the release of A Levels results came after such a long wait.. dunno whether is a good thing or bad..but strangely i felt nothing during the last week.. neither anxious nor worried nor afraid.. simply nothing.. totally different from what I felt for my O Levels though.. god knows why.. well.. it's a good thing i suppose.. less white hair-.-haha
den came friday.. still feeling nothing.. played game somemore..seriously it did not feel like it concerned me..gosh.. well..heck and i went to school..
met up with friends when i came back..saw some botaks as well..haha..chatted with some and den we headed for hall.. saw Mr Lim.. been quite a while since i saw him.. last time was during new year..haha.. anyway.. he gave us a super heavy goodie bag..gosh..haha..and we waited for the release..
the release came with Mrs Loke talking about the overview and blah blah blah..den came names of ppl with distinctions....
Well 'results' is a sensitive topic..shall not elaborate.. but congrats to those who had scored well or at least happy with their results.. for those that did not score as well..bounce back, as one of my good friends said..
Thank you to all my teachers, Mr Lim, Miss Quek, Mrs Lim, Mrs Beetsma, Mrs Leong (even though I may quarrel with her quite a bit, but still she is my teacher)
Sorry to Miss Quek.. You are a great teacher and I really thank you for all your efforts.. Sorry that i couldnt produce a better grade for GP.. I'm glad you were my GP tutor.. and you always will be.. Same goes for all my other tutors as well.. You've been great! Keep it up and hope you will enjoy teaching your current classes.. Hope our paths will cross again sometime! Take Care! =)
waiting for you to come back @ 6:46 PM
I guess..
I guess i aint that good with handling interpersonal relationships ba...constantly making the ones i love angry.. i'm sorry.. it's just too much things to think and worry about lately and i aint getting good sleep for it..keep dreaming of the things i worry about..
I'm sorry...
waiting for you to come back @ 1:55 PM
sigh...
sian sia... why does it always seem like it's my fault whenever i'm angry.. gosh..it seems like i never have the right to be angry or something..perhaps ppl think i'm too good tempered le..cannot lose my temper..that's why i somehow lose that right..so now whenever i'm angry..it's always my fault..
sigh..initially in the morning still can laugh and stuff de.. den suddenly started scolding me..what the hell la...women can be so............i cant even find a word for it..gosh!argh..even if i apologise, she's still not appeased..sian la..let her cool down la..ARGH!!!!!! why cant i even have the right to be angry at times as well too?!?!?!?!
waiting for you to come back @ 12:28 PM
New year post...
Just a note.. this is not a funny post or whatsoever..so if u are looking for jokes and laughter..u can stop now ba..haha..
hmm..first post of the year..just came back from watching the fireworks..hmm..dunno leh..somehow i dun really appreciate the fireworks ba..i meant this year de seems very messy and uncoordinated..dun really feel nice though it's quite long..still not worth it ba..i think..oh well..
anyway..this post aint about fireworks ba.. currently i'm in my study room next to my parents' room..they are talking..in dialect..but i can more or less understand..just cant speak that well though..haha..hmm..talking about my mother's family ba.. hmm..dun wish to go into details.. i just thought.. if my grandmother were to pass away(touch wood touch wood), i think the family will definitely break up..no more visiting my grandma house etc..no more gathering.. good thing is i have more personal time, bad thing is less of family time.. i mean sometimes i admit that the elderly may be hard to take care of..a lot of things need to be taken care of..it frustrates one..especially if u are taking care of someone who is not blood related to you..it even frustrates u more i guess..but even so, it's still part of your responsibility to take care of her and also do mind your words at times even though u may be a straightforward person.. u gotta be sensitive to things u say, especially to things that the elderly hold dear to..the elderly may be a hassle at times.. but to take a step back.. it's the key that holds the family together.. it's the only person that can bring a family together and at least interact..without her, i believe a lot of things will definitely change.. the change will come inevitably but i really hope that change will not come so soon..that is perhaps part of my new year resolution ba..
as for the person in the matter.. after what i hear..though i do believe that it may be unfair to judge a person jus based on what my mom says.. but i will definitely view her in a different light now.. but i aint gonna show it that obviously..it wont do me any good... perhaps.. in this case some may say i'm a hypocrite..i too hate hypocrites.. rather than saying a hypocrite..why not say that everyone wears a mask, a different mask with different ppl.. once the mask is off..u have no idea how ugly the person might be..i definitely hope that my friends are not wearing a thick mask in front of me..cos i'm trying my best to show who i am in front of them..and i hope that they will do the same as well..haha..
hmm..boring post,interesting post?.. doesnt matter to me..just typing how i feel..
waiting for you to come back @ 1:48 AM
First day going to work... wish me luck!haha
waiting for you to come back @ 12:55 PM